Once again, I apologise for being absent. I know it’s been over a month since I posted, and I will, WILL start posting regularly again.. I kept meaning to..I wanted to, I just never actually posted. So many times I opened up a new post and just sat staring at it.. I didn’t know what to say to be honest. I think the break has done me some good though, and now I’ll post as much as I can.
The other thing is I haven’t really had much to say. I have up days, I have down days, but I think in general I’m much happier, healthier, and in a much better place than I was a month ago. I think I blog because I’m lonely and sad, and I haven’t been very lonely or sad recently. There are bad days, but there always will be. The difference is my marine helps me so much. I’ve never been in a relationship with so much trust and, more importantly, mutual respect. It’s done me a world of good.
My self esteem hasn’t been so good recently. Because (and I certainly know I’m not fat) but I’ve put on weight and I’m not used to it, and I see all these really, really pretty pictures of girls on Facebook and then I look at myself in the mirror and I look so awful in comparison and it’s really been upsetting me recently. I think about it almost constantly, and it’s put me on a massive downer (probably why I’ve started blogging again!).
On the plus side…I passed my driving test! Finally. Those of you who’ve been following my blog will know my frustration over driving. But yeah, I passed, and I have a car, and I LOVE driving by myself (: happy Anna.
My marines back in a troop..so far it isn’t that bad, only occasionally like today when he’s busy until ate tonight or when he’s away on a training exercise…otherwise it’s a lot like him being in hunter company. So Im Proud of him, and happy for him.
It’s my birthday on Monday and I’m so excited, I’m also off to Amsterdam next Thursday until the following Monday (over Easter weekend) which should be amazing. I’m so excited about it. I just hope my drivers license comes before then so I don’t have to use my passport as ID all the time.
Fruitfly and I are all good at the minute, haven’t argued in a long time which is really nice. College is ok, honestly? I’m just sticking it out until the holidays and then study leave. I only have like 28 days left of lessons anyway. An old friend of mine (we talked and were close about two years ago) chatted to me the other day which is nice and we’ve been texting on and off ever since. He’s a nice guy, we get on well.